April 10, 2009 is the day I created my first dA account. That was nearly six years ago! In fact, I am pretty sure I used this website years before I even made an account (I used quizilla before dA lol, and Neopets before that!)
I have seen so many beautiful pieces of art and I have witnessed many people I follow grow up and become professionals. But I am not enchanted by dA like I once was. I used to spend hours looking at photography and various other artworks from users and groups that I followed. I commented when I felt it was due, and sometimes I would even lurk the forums. I was never popular on here nor did I make the effort to befriend many people and I am still not super talented but I always felt as though dA was my home. DeviantArt used to be magical but I can't help to feel like I am simply falling out love with this website. I feel as though DeviantArt is going the way of the myspace, and i just can't deal with that.
I went back to using tumblr but not for art, I will get to that later. I mostly just blog about my life, and I am attempting the whole weight loss thing again so I have been blogging about that too. I've been pretty active there and I am pretty sure tumblr is my official go to to site at the moment. Please send me a note(or at least leave a comment here) if you would like to view my tumblr so that I can give you my url. I would rather not give it out publicly at the moment for reasons of my own. I am also slightly active on facebook and goodreads so let me know if you would like those as well. I will still probably check by dA every once in a while but lets face it I am just not very active here anymore.
Awe, I just looked up neopets because I was still thinking about it, and oh man I would probably still be pretty active on there if it hadn't changed so much (it's probably been a good 10-15 since I last used neopets). The website was first designed for college students for pete's sake but then Viacom bought neopets and it was all down hill from there. Ahhh... memories.
As for the artwork, I haven't been doing much of anything lately. I guess you can say that I am experiencing a bit of an artist's block. I just can't seem to muster up the motivation to do anything creative. I miss my photography so much, I just feel like I never have enough time and when I do I don't know what to photograph. I do in fact have a few photos on the camera that I just have not transferred to the computer though. As for creative writing, I've had no interest. I have been trying to get myself to read more though, which I have been doing.
I'll come back and proofread later, but bye for now.
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I may be back
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After almost 2 years, I must admit DeviantArt looks fairly foreign to me. I'm not sure how I feel about this version of dA, and I am shocked I can write this on my phone. It is sort of nice. I am not exactly sure I am watching anyone active or if anyone active is still watching me but I figure that I'll write this and figure that out later.
Two years ago a lot of things were up in the air and they still are. I am beginning to learn that life is a little funny like that. The legal issues my significant other was facing have been cleared up entirely. They cleared just as we were graduating. That's right, both my boyfriend and I have our bachelor degrees! But unfortunately, now we are both jobless (but actively looking) because it just so happens that you cannot be a student worker when you are no longer a student.
As sad as that may be, we are both looking forward to the opportunities that are ahead of us. Thankfully, Las Vegas seems to be having a little bit of a job boom so we should be okay for a few months until we find something.
I do have several things I would like to upload in the next few weeks. Though I have been very busy and tired, I have managed to take a few nice photographs. I think I am most proud of the "school photos" I took for my sister. I'm not sure she will let me upload those though. I am gearing up to do her senior photos next.
Well, I'm not sure what else to say so um ask lots of questions?
*I will edit this when I get to a computer.
Two years ago a lot of things were up in the air and they still are. I am beginning to learn that life is a little funny like that. The legal issues my significant other was facing have been cleared up entirely. They cleared just as we were graduating. That's right, both my boyfriend and I have our bachelor degrees! But unfortunately, now we are both jobless (but actively looking) because it just so happens that you cannot be a student worker when you are no longer a student.
As sad as that may be, we are both looking forward to the opportunities that are ahead of us. Thankfully, Las Vegas seems to be having a little bit of a job boom so we should be okay for a few months until we find something.
I do have several things I would like to upload in the next few weeks. Though I have been very busy and tired, I have managed to take a few nice photographs. I think I am most proud of the "school photos" I took for my sister. I'm not sure she will let me upload those though. I am gearing up to do her senior photos next.
Well, I'm not sure what else to say so um ask lots of questions?
*I will edit this when I get to a computer.
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Falling out of Love
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I am going to make this journal as quick as possible. I am exhausted and have work tomorrow.
A few major things have happened since I last wrote to you guys.
I moved out of my parents house and moved into a Condo with Mikey. I cannot even begin to tell you how much I enjoy this place: rent is cheap, it's located on a park, and best of all it is all mine (and Mikey's too I guess). It even has a deck, a balcony, and a back patio area to hang out at. It all feels like a vacation.
Although, this condo is certainly not perfect: there is carpet everywhere (even in the bathrooms!), many thing are old and outdated (we are currently working with the landlord to replace the 30 year washer and dryer in this place), and this condo was seriously in need of cleaning.
I am so excited to announce my recent move to you guys, that I have completely forgotten what else I wanted to write. Man, I am going to have to start writing these things well in advanced starting with outline and ending with several proof reads.
Well I am going to finish up watching The Good, the Bad, and The Ugly and go to bed.
Good night everyone
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A few major things have happened since I last wrote to you guys.
I moved out of my parents house and moved into a Condo with Mikey. I cannot even begin to tell you how much I enjoy this place: rent is cheap, it's located on a park, and best of all it is all mine (and Mikey's too I guess). It even has a deck, a balcony, and a back patio area to hang out at. It all feels like a vacation.
Although, this condo is certainly not perfect: there is carpet everywhere (even in the bathrooms!), many thing are old and outdated (we are currently working with the landlord to replace the 30 year washer and dryer in this place), and this condo was seriously in need of cleaning.
I am so excited to announce my recent move to you guys, that I have completely forgotten what else I wanted to write. Man, I am going to have to start writing these things well in advanced starting with outline and ending with several proof reads.
Well I am going to finish up watching The Good, the Bad, and The Ugly and go to bed.
Good night everyone
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These are dark times
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Dark Times
I woke up just the other day, with the worst feeling of impending doom. I felt as though I was falling but I also had the feeling that I would never land. It took me a few days to rationalize that I have been going through my own sort of dark ages. I would love to spark my own Renaissance but quite frankly I don't even know where to begin. I have not been reading, I have not been writing, I have not been using my camera, I have not been sketching, and I certainly have not crocheting. Although, after reading that sentence I realize that perhaps I have too many interests. I am not quite sure if that is a bad thing, but perhaps I should narrow my list of interests and only put a focus on a few. The perfectionist in me wants so badly to be a jack of all trades, a true Renaissance woman, but I also wanted to be an astrophysicist and we all know that it isn't happening (I am happy living debt free, thank you).
I do have a plan though, I just need help staying accountable. I have a nasty habit thinking of everything I would like to do, rather than actually doing them.
Here are my more art related projects:
- I want to start reading all the classics. I honestly had the idea of using shmoop, or spark notes as my reading list. I am not daft enough to rely on those sites to summarize and analyze my reading, but I figured those sites would make a wonderful reading list. Do you disagree? I generally just read modern works (before my dark ages, I was binging on Stephen King) but I figure the classics would dramatically improve my comprehension skills, vocabulary, as well as writing skills. I am not worried about the price of the books, but I am more worried about the time it will take to actually read them.
- I want to start a 365 photography project. I have the most beautiful DSLR stashed away in my closet, and I want to use it so bad. It is the best camera (and most expensive) I have ever owned and yet I have barely used it. I don't even know where to start on that; it seems too overwhelming to come up with a publishable picture every single day. The benefits of taking a photo every single day certainly do out weight the negatives. The negatives being the time I must dedicate to the project, and benefits being the skills I will gain as a photographer.
The next few "projects" I want to start are health related:
- I want to start drinking more water, as it is right now, I am only drinking about half a gallon of water each day but I want to try and drink at least a gallon. I know it would help as I live in such a dry climate and I dehydrate easily. I feel with my half a gallon I am just barely making it by with out feeling dehydrated.
- I want to begin meditating (at least once a day). I recently watched a documentary about how devastating the effects of stress can be on the body so I want to help reverse that. I figure meditating will help keep my stress free, help my depression and anxiety, and help me be a happier person in general.
- I want to start exercising 3 days a week. I feel tired, and sluggish, self-conscious, and I have a lot of weight to lose. I have already taken the step to eating better but even I know that is not enough. I've been watching My 600lb. Life on TLC and I am deathly afraid of becoming like those people. The last time I weighed myself I weighed just over 250 lbs. I had been gained weight so fast ever since a certain incident happened when I was 16 (I was about 110-120 lbs then). Now I am 22 and I got take control of my body or else I will be like those people. I do not expect to be 110lbs ever again but I would be quite comfortable and happy at maybe 130lbs to 150lbs.
I think my biggest problem with all of these ideas is the amount of time I will have dedicate to each project. I already feel crunched for time between school, work, and my relationship with Mikey. But perhaps I am just being lazy. I willingly admit, I spend too much time browsing the internet, and watching my shows. I am not quite sure how to keep myself accountable for any of my projects, and I not quite sure how to balance my time between all of these things.
Any ideas, or words of advice? Am I trying to do to much at once?
In other news
Work and school are going along just fine (in fact I need to clock back in for work in 13 minutes). I have all A's at the moment and I am hoping to keep that up the rest of the semester.
Mike's house is still in limbo. The devil is still taking her sweet time getting back to her lawyer. I believe Mike and I are going to ask our lawyer to start pushing issue much harder because we have been waiting too long with nothing happening.
Well I should be going now. Bye!
Mike's house is still in limbo. The devil is still taking her sweet time getting back to her lawyer. I believe Mike and I are going to ask our lawyer to start pushing issue much harder because we have been waiting too long with nothing happening.
Well I should be going now. Bye!
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I am not quite sure what to say accept that I don't feel all too artistic lately, in fact I feel pretty flat. It is a wondrous thing to back to work and school though. Winter Break was killer.
I spent most of it home either in bed or spring cleaning. I am pretty sure I am a hoarder (or at least have hoarding tendency), I threw out several garbage bags of trash and junk, and I took several more to the thrift store just from my little bedroom. I cannot believe how much stuff I have accumulated over the years. I kept a lot of it on the premise that perhaps it would be useful later on. It's gone and the room is clean and uncluttered for the most part but it is still not done.
Also during the break, Mikey got me watching Star Trek. I've been watching the original series and oh my god why I have never watched this show before.
School started on the 20th for me. It feels good to be back. I am taking calculus, professional communications, and a social science seminar about child poverty. All is good so far; professors seem decent and subject matter is not bad at all.
I went back to work on the 20th as well (oh the joys of a campus job). It has been a chaotic first week with students being added and dropped but over all I love my job; I especially love the part where I am not home all the damn day. Although, I am not much of a social person, so all the people are little overwhelming. Oh and I had someone come in today asking if we offered the CATs (they meant SAT's) and another asking where they are at (my college is a tiny one building, one story community college and they had just walked in the door); these people make me feel like a genius somedays.
On the topic of being not so artsy feeling, I just feel flat, dull, and uninspired. Mikey bought me this beautiful DSLR a few months back to get my photography booming and it's just sitting in my closet. I feel absolutely terrible about it. I feel like I have let everyone down with this flatness I am feeling. I have a few unfinished writings sitting on my hard drive as well. For the most part I feel like a failed human being but I suppose I am just stressed.
The devil is stilling suing Mikey for his home and is taking her sweet, sweet time to get back to her lawyer. I feel as though she is just trying to buy her time and live in the house as long as she possibly can. The fact is that her name has never been on the deed, the house was never intended to be hers. Long story short, is that Mike and his dad Father bought the house together, his dad died unexpectedly, and now she is claiming rights to the home. During the winter break she proposed a settlement to sell the house and split the profit 50/50 which Mike and I readily agreed to that, and just last week we found out that she changed her mind on the settlement. It's infuriating to say the least. I think the part makes me the feel the worst is that is at the casino almost daily playing the slots and is just having a giant kegger, while Mike and I are living together in a tiny bedroom with barely enough money to make it through the month.
One last thing. At first I did not mind the changes to the layout that dA made, but now with the official dA app out I absolutely despise everything they have done. dA doesn't feel like home anymore but quite frankly I have no where else to go. No other website has ever been quite like dA so I stay. dA was never meant to be another facebook. I have been checking dA much less now, but I am still log on every here and there.
Well I think I have some chinese take out in the fridge calling my name, so I got to go.
Adios amigos.
I spent most of it home either in bed or spring cleaning. I am pretty sure I am a hoarder (or at least have hoarding tendency), I threw out several garbage bags of trash and junk, and I took several more to the thrift store just from my little bedroom. I cannot believe how much stuff I have accumulated over the years. I kept a lot of it on the premise that perhaps it would be useful later on. It's gone and the room is clean and uncluttered for the most part but it is still not done.
Also during the break, Mikey got me watching Star Trek. I've been watching the original series and oh my god why I have never watched this show before.
School started on the 20th for me. It feels good to be back. I am taking calculus, professional communications, and a social science seminar about child poverty. All is good so far; professors seem decent and subject matter is not bad at all.
I went back to work on the 20th as well (oh the joys of a campus job). It has been a chaotic first week with students being added and dropped but over all I love my job; I especially love the part where I am not home all the damn day. Although, I am not much of a social person, so all the people are little overwhelming. Oh and I had someone come in today asking if we offered the CATs (they meant SAT's) and another asking where they are at (my college is a tiny one building, one story community college and they had just walked in the door); these people make me feel like a genius somedays.
On the topic of being not so artsy feeling, I just feel flat, dull, and uninspired. Mikey bought me this beautiful DSLR a few months back to get my photography booming and it's just sitting in my closet. I feel absolutely terrible about it. I feel like I have let everyone down with this flatness I am feeling. I have a few unfinished writings sitting on my hard drive as well. For the most part I feel like a failed human being but I suppose I am just stressed.
The devil is stilling suing Mikey for his home and is taking her sweet, sweet time to get back to her lawyer. I feel as though she is just trying to buy her time and live in the house as long as she possibly can. The fact is that her name has never been on the deed, the house was never intended to be hers. Long story short, is that Mike and his dad Father bought the house together, his dad died unexpectedly, and now she is claiming rights to the home. During the winter break she proposed a settlement to sell the house and split the profit 50/50 which Mike and I readily agreed to that, and just last week we found out that she changed her mind on the settlement. It's infuriating to say the least. I think the part makes me the feel the worst is that is at the casino almost daily playing the slots and is just having a giant kegger, while Mike and I are living together in a tiny bedroom with barely enough money to make it through the month.
One last thing. At first I did not mind the changes to the layout that dA made, but now with the official dA app out I absolutely despise everything they have done. dA doesn't feel like home anymore but quite frankly I have no where else to go. No other website has ever been quite like dA so I stay. dA was never meant to be another facebook. I have been checking dA much less now, but I am still log on every here and there.
Well I think I have some chinese take out in the fridge calling my name, so I got to go.
Adios amigos.
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